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Buried At Birth (How Was I To Know)

In through the eye of a needle torn

Sewing the belly from which I'm born

The scar a reminder of who to be

Disappointment is what bleeds from thee

I resemble the pain you must have felt

When he threw you down and unbuckled his belt

Taking your dreams and cursing your womb

Planting the weeds amongst the bloom

And everyday I heard you cry

Blaming yourself for what grows inside

Reliving the memory that disturbs your sleep

Casting doubt that I am something you want to keep

Lost in your thoughts of yes or no

Days turned to months as your belly did show

Then came the moment when the thinking is done

And the victim of rape had bore a son

I have the same eyes that you've learned to hate

A hatred you unwillingly wanted to create

Yet, here I am and you'll never be free

I'm sorry Mommy for being me

If you could only look past the pain of what was

My unconditional love would be enough

To mend the ache which haunts your heart

Always taking you back to the start

Your life ended that very day

When he forced himself on you then threw you away

And a nine month nightmare was all you had left

Except for the questions and wishing for death

So I thank you Daddy for giving me life

A morbid conception at the end of a knife

With you as a role model of how to be a man

I'm glad the Heaven's had their own plan

There were complications that arose the next night

And being so small I was unable to fight

Let this be a blessing in disguise

My living would have ruined both of our lives

Now may you have the future you always deserved

And from true love create a little boy or girl

Misery isn't how life always has to go

But then again, how was I to know

Rosies

She’s got her rose colored glasses,

she takes them three times day,

they make her world so much simpler,

they blow her history away.

She sits and stares out the window,

waiting for her Bobby to come home.

He’s been gone for over 10 years now,

but she don’t feel so alone.

She used to be so much more lively

when Bobby met her that first day at school,

when her sister died on a Monday,

the doctor fixed her-- with the tool.

She’s got her rose colored glasses,

she takes them three times day,

they make her world so much simpler

they blow her history away.

He tried to get her to stop drinking,

he tried to get her to get off the meds.

She could never make it through a Monday,

she’d put on her rosies instead.

He used to kiss her good morning,

he used to kiss her good night,

he left her late one evening,

he had to get her out of his sight.

She’s got her rose colored glasses,

she takes them three times day,

they make her world so much simpler,

they blow her history away.

She tries to remember her sister,

who she dosen’t remember to miss,

she tries to remember her Bobby,

but she dosen’t remember his kiss.

She sits and stares out her window,

waiting for her Bobby to come home,

he’s been gone for over 10 years now,

but she don’t feel so alone.

She’s got her rose colored glasses,

She takes them three times day,

they make her world so much simpler

they blow her history away.

©George

13 Years

13 years since I’ve seen

The one that hurt me so

13 years what I mean

Since she let me go

13 years of pain and tears

Remembering our days of fun

13 years I waited dear

To ask you what was done

13 years I waited for

The call that never came

13 years of wanting more

Maybe its just the same

13 years of wondering why

You couldn’t love me so

13 years of trying to tie

The memories you let go

13 years doesn’t seem

To long of time to wait

13 years of hopes and dreams

That love would be our fate

13 years of endless rain

Pouring within my heart

13 years of endless pain

Pounding as we part

13 years to this day

You broke my heart in two

13 years and still can’t say

I’m over you

©Todd Cooper

Sleep

Flash flood dreams of yesterday

But not one hour of sleep

Only pain for future day

But none I was to keep

If I may just sleep one day

The pain would fade to back

And sleep all day if I may

The skies would stop turning black

Watch for night as he comes

For fear is just behind

And know not where he is coming from

Or troubles he's trying to hide

But know to well the fear he brings

And the feeling of being trapped

Because its hard to fly with broken wings

With fear across your back

If I could I'd go with you

And leave this world of mine

If I go would things be through

Would my world be fine

Take a chance or stay within

The realm of sleepless nights

Dare to chance the waking sin

And hope I've chosen right

So sleep my friends and hope to dream

Of us in a far off place

So sleep my friends and it may seem

That we're together for one last race