A Hundred Trillion Miles Away

I'm running from a loneliness,
I'm running from my "home",
but all I've found is emptiness,
I've found that I'm alone.
The sea is deep and black and cold,
Islands of warmth pass away,
I'm a billion years young and a thousand years old,
I've gone a billion miles today.

I'm a hundred trillion miles away, I've gone a billion miles today.
I'm a hundred million years ago, and my home is far away.

The place was small, and warm and kind,
that I'll never return or retrieve,
but it wasn't my home that I left behind,
for I never had a home to leave.

I understood eternity,
but I could never find words for my love,
though the smiling stars are calling me,
I'm doomed forever to rove.

I'm a hundred trillion miles away, I've gone a billion miles today.
I'm a hundred million years ago, and my home is far away.

I'm wandering through the star swept sky,
till I come to my Journeys end,
and then I'll smile and quietly die,
a man without a friend.

I'm born to die and I'm dead to birth,
I have have no home to flee,
I'm born to cry and I'm dead to mirth,
there's no one waiting for me.

I'm a hundred trillion miles away, I've gone a billion miles today.
I'm a hundred million years ago, and my home is far away.

I'm a hundred trillion miles away from nowhere,
for a thousand years and a day I'm doomed to roam,
I can fly for ever and ever and never get there,
cause I'm a lonely man, I'm a man without a home.


Requistall Nohrgestain, March 27, 1977