Until You Found Me
I have Learned
12 PM
Content in the Night
Dusk
Writing
Despair
Until You Found Me
I used to be meUntil you found me
I did what I wanted
I did what pleased me
Until you found me
I didn’t care
I didn’t love
Until you found me
I searched for meaning
I looked for love
Until you found me
I tried to fill my hole
I tried to hide the blackness
Until you found me
I am yours
You found me
I do what you want
I strive to please you
You found me
I care for others
I love the unloved
You found me
I found meaning
I found love
You found me
My hole is filled
The blackness is washed away
I found you
12 PM
Sometimes at nightThoughts spin through my head
A million miles an hour
Hyped from all the sugar and caffeine
My brain is like a hundred mile hour train
It can’t be stopped
Thoughts and ideas spin around
Faster than I can write on paper
More complex than what I can comprehend to put into words
I love it
I hate it
Sleep is calling
Yet I know not how long the next brilliant flash
Of imagination will decide to pop in my head
I wish you were in my head
Yet I doubt that’d be wise
I wonder who else feels like me
I am often lonely
Sometimes the need to share grows overwhelming
Yet no one has any interest
I am ahead of my years
Yet in some ways I feel so much more a teen
I better quit rambling
Before I thoroughly confuse you
Goodnight I hope my brain has an on/off switch
Ha that’d be nice…
Content in the night
Out here away from the light, the businessThe silence was delightful, the peace intoxicating
Lying on my back, the blackness of the sky stretched beyond my vision
But yet a trillion stars lit up the sky, more than you could ever see in the city
The crescent moon shined brightly in unison with the stars.
The crickets chirped contentedly nearby in the grass.
The grass softly swished around me, and I was content.
Just me and God here to enjoy and reflect
If only society would allow for more time like this
Dusk
The log cabin behind me, the lake in frontMy dream vacation come true
The sun in the distance fading behind the mountains
Reflecting off the dark blue waters
Orange, yellow, pink highlighted the darkening sky
The smell of fresh water aroma permeated my nostrils
Laying on a rocking chair next to my wife
The world made sense
There is order contrary to belief
You just have to wait for it
Writing
This paper this penIs my pass to freedom
To unlock from my mind
Words, thoughts, ideas
Flow freely from my hand
I feel alive
I feel needed
To share with the world
That is what I enjoy most
Writing, my trade’s choice
Intro: I had to do a history paper and that day I really felt like writing so it turned into this. It’s not really a poem but it’s got a rhythm so I placed it here
I have learned
Throughout my life I have gained valuable lessonsOne of which is that life is meaningless and empty without God
One of the ways I have obtained valuable lessons
Is by reading many many books which in itself has taught me a lesson
Books give you a different, wiser perspective on life
They teach you many good lessons which make you smarter
I have learned to live in this world but not of it
That this teenage stage is but that
A stage doomed to end and bring brighter days
I have learned to think of the long term
How my choices in the short term affect it
I have learned to do unto others as they would do unto me
To be kind and always carry a smile around
I have learned to think outside my American box
To think of others in 3rd world countries
(Although I admit I am still working in this area of thought)
I have learned that history like books
Gives you a sense of pity and care which is readily apparent on some individuals like Mrs. Austin
Who no doubt left an impression on all her students
I have learned that it is good to desire to leave a positive impact on everyone you meet
To leave this world with a positive impact in the world
I have learned that everyday we should strive to be a better person than we were the day before
I have learned that everyday there is an inner battle within us all between good and evil
That we must choose which will conquer us for there is no in between
I have learned to block out insults, jabs, snide remarks, and sarcasm
For it does not matter what people think but what God thinks of me
I have learned to listen to my father and mother for they are filled with wisdom and advice
I have learned to pray everyday for it helps more than the human mind can grasp
I have learned to strive to do the best I can in everything I do
For that is the least I can do to repay for all the bad I have created on this Earth
I have learned that God is forgiving and no matter how bad my sin is he still accepts me
I have learned that it is not unmanly to show your emotions and it is a sign of maturity
I have learned that I am not as smart as I once assumed for many Pre-AP students dwarf me in comparison
I have learned that if we young ones would stop and take the time to listen
To have a conversation with old people we would learn many life lessons and interesting stories
I have learned that everyone has a heart, somewhere
I have learned that the book with the most lessons to be learned is the Bible
I have learned that you may be the big and strong one now but one day you will be the little and weak
I have learned that we all go to one of two places when we die and we would do well to remember it
I have learned that God has a plan for all our lives
That we can choose to submit and live it
Or we can rebel and follow the path of pain and destruction
I have learned that there are two kinds of people
Those who know the truth and strive to live by it
And those who deny there is a truth and run as far away from it as possible
I have learned that everyone has been given talents
We can choose to use them or discard them
I have learned that evolutionists are either blind or running away from the truth that smacks them in the face
That this world could not have… come into being without an intelligent design or purpose
I have learned that Science does not explain everything, that there is more to life than what can be proven
I have learned that we have freedom of speech in America except about Christianity
I have learned that life is a big adventure of which we must conquer or perish
I have learned that money, fame and power gain you nothing in the end but emptiness
I have learned that I am nothing without God and if I always remembered that I would much humbler
I have learned that being a dreamer is a great thing for where would great people be without their dreams
I have learned that God uses every Christian as a translator for him to the rest of the world
I have learned that I could probably go on a page or two but
That you’d fall asleep so I end with
I have learned
Oh, what I have learned
Despair
I live in this endless void of nothingNothing but to despair and die
Death is bliss but leads to nothing
A nothing worse than the living hell
That I endure here this day
So I live despairing
But refusing to give in
To the bitter but blissfulness of death
Trudging on without purpose
Refusing to believe in purpose
Content in my ways of ignorance
If there is a God he is hell
Delighting in the torture
Of us mere mortals
Us sorry excuse for a human race
We wallow in our sins and tragedies
Without hope of joy
One day I will be gone
Leaving this sinful world behind
Leaving humans to fight
In the game of survival
Finally embracing sickly sweet
Death of bliss
I laugh at the world
For I am no longer part of
The game of life
I die in bliss
I go into the nothingness
That consumes my whole being
I die in bliss