.: The Blogs: a mini-view into the mind of "Chaotic_Structure"
I began writing blogs in 2005 at MySpace. My ISP was purchased by another so my music education site that I had been building since 1998, had to be moved.
During this change-over my interests in music education began to wane. The music ed files laid dormant in the recesses of my computer for over a year, because blogging had become more important to me during that time. My blogs were used as a public-journal, a vehicle for catharsis, and a way to communicate openly with "cyber-people", who seemed less threatening than a face to face out-pouring of my thoughts.
Although my writing was raw and amateurish, the feelings were real and I did the best that I could in expressing myself. I revealed more about myself to strangers than some would have advised as wise. For about a year, I blogged daily and it made me feel good to get feedback from these cyber-strangers and, for a while, it was important for me to have this type of connection.
My blogs are less noticed now, as I no longer blog daily, AND I've run across unsavory types that have soured me from being so forthright in a public forum. However, I choose to share these blogs from the past as I'm wiser and less "wowed" by the attention of strangers. Nonetheless, my attraction with the Internet is still strong, but for other reasons. I love the internet because of the resources for anything I want to know more about is at my fingertips. It's interesting to see what others are creating with their artwork be it photography, video, music, as well as, the topics that are blogged about. TED.com is also a source of inspiration to me.
I retired from the public school system in 2007 and remained unemployed (by choice), for a year in an effort to reorganize my life, revitalize my health, and discover a new passion for life. For the first time in three decades, I've made time for myself and the people who mean the most to me in my "real" offline life.
In the spring of 2008, I got a call from a charter high school principal that asked me to drop by her office. She asked me if I would like to work as a part-time music teacher. I told her that I had grown tired of teaching music but would really like to try teaching video production. She applied for a grant and it was approved in the spring. My degrees are in music education, and technology so I'm enjoying utilizing both areas in my classes. We are using Canon HF-100s and new computers that were built specifically with video production in mind. Our school system uses PCs with the latest version of XP. The superintendent is working on getting us at least one MAC to use in class. Our software from NewTek, (Speed Edit) has been a wash. It won't accept a capture from USB and the Canon doesn't have firewire capabilities. Until I'm able to find some software that is compatible with our cameras, we will have to convert all of our m2ts files that the Canon produces to wmv files, (which is terribly time consuming) and use the beginners, scaled-down version of windows movie-maker. In time, I feel we will make the switch to Sony Vegas Platinum software. I was considering using Pinnacle for a while and purchased version 12 Ultimate for my personal use. However, it is also not as conducive to our particular files as the trial version of Sony Vegas.
I've learned much about my behavior, my attitudes, and my life through my online involvement. It is my hope that after all the many months and years that I used to make these files public, that at least something here will be found amusing, helpful, or thought-provoking. In the meantime, anyone that finds my little site (among the billions available) please feel free to contact me. Blogging, Vlogging, Podcasting, etc. are my efforts in practicing discipline in staying current with events. Hopefully, my efforts will help someones' day be a little easier and brighter.
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